i should feel sad i guess, or disappointed, cheated, but for some reason i don’t feel anything
i faked some enthusiasm for him, and i told him i’m so happy for you and i knew for sure you were always gonna win her over anyway, but when i put the phone down i wasn’t happy for him, but i wasn’t sad either. i just kind of wanted to finish doing my homework and sleep.
do you get what i mean?
it’s so strange, i’ve liked him for so long
I SHOULD FEEL SOMETHING
i need to remember this
Skies shearing wide-open jagged like saws, a grit-your-teeth tearing like a woman giving birth, silk ripping and rippling like salt ocean waves falling back and revealing twilit skyscapes that make me feel small. Stars burning all around me falling falling like meteors of molten gold, and the air is burning my lungs are ash, the marrows of my bones have started boiling, why do you look so scared, are you cold? The best feeling in he world is evaporating, reversion back to stardust like we were always meant to. Twenty twelve and earthquakes snapping this planet in half, terrorists with gritty hair and cloudy eyes, earth beneath us crumbling like biscuits made too dry, in these dreams all these thoughts and wishes and fears are all the same, shimmering and deadly; we have all become burnt ozone.
then it feels like we’re all in this together
i can’t really explain
i mean i can but only when i’m really comfortable and not under those stage lights, and i can hit the high notes only sometimes
oh my god oh my god :(